Night of the 59th Day - 1 Hour Remain

One hour of my childhood left, sigh. I don't want to become adult just yet. I don't feel like I've completed the childhood level. Feels like my disc of life has been stucked one year. This year feels so last year. Nothing has changed.

Okay okay, of course there are things that have changed. For example I'm much happier than last year, since the reason of my depression is gone. But still, I don't feel happy. That doesn't mean I'm unhappy. I'm just not happy, but not not-happy enough to be unhappy.

Feels like I'm living in a world of grey. Only grey shades. I want colors in my life!

I'm the only one who can un-stuck my disc of life and stop everyday from feeling the same. I don't want to fastforward my disc like some people, I want it to play, play properly.

Why can't it be possible to rewind our lives? I'd like to rewind it, and play it another way. Hmm..but then we would't appreciate the life this much, since we could just press reset when we have fucked up live enough.

There's many things I'd like to do, some more stupid than others, but since I know it isn't possible to reset or rewind life I'm afraid of doing it.

Luckily there's something called dreaming, otherwise life sure would be boring. So I'll just have to train my brain to get more lucid dreams. Only bad thing about dreaming is that they aren't real, I hate waking up from a happy dream..

I hope the chocolate will be colorful. Otherwise this chocolate strike has been a total waist of time. Or not, my skin is much beautiful than before (Not that I'm 100 % sure it's because of the lack of chocolate, It could also be the new pills. They feel more effective than the last ones.)

Night of the 12th Day - 1131 Hours Remain

Read Illustrerad Vetenskap while eating dinner(Even though you shouldn't read/watch tv when you eat. But I don't care, I like the habit) a moment ago. There was an article about ageing, if you eat less than you should you'll live longer, but is a longer life good enough to live in constant hunger?

I'm pretty sure Earth will become really messed up after circa 50 years because of the Global warming etc. And then people will kill eachother. And then all the cookieless days and the feeling of hunger would be for nothing if you die before it's your time. So I'll just continue to eat a lot of yummy cookies, even though the risk of getting serious diseases like cancer will increase. I rather regret things i did in my life than things I didn't..Besides, "It matters not how long we live, but how" (Not that I agree to that to 100 per cent)

Hmm..I'm on a chocolate strike and I think you should enjoy your life, that doesn't fit together. Well, I think I enjoy getting a Wii (I'll buy it with my own money so i actually won't "get" it) more than eating chocolate in 60 days. And this chocolate strike is also to test my strenght so..

Oh, and you know something taste better when you wait long enough and fight for it. If I would just get a Wii by snapping my fingers I wouldn't value Wii enough. Talking about waiting, where's my sexy, rich prince? That's right, I haven't even tried to find him..Hmm..maybe Google will find him. (It's pretty interesting to google yourself, huh? Addicting somehow..)

Yeah, I know love isn't about money (and not that much about looks either), but I would rather have a rich guy than a poor one. Wish I'd be bisexual, then the range would be wider. I actually read in Illustrerad Vetenskap that bisexual ducks live longer than heterosexual ones..
Hmm...